A Love Hate Masquerade

I'm really sad. Kids In The Way is different. Than they were. They used to be different. Now they're not. I feel like crying. No more screaming, they're still good, just not special.
Looking forward to the new Thousand Foot Krutch album. But people say they're going just a little softer too. What's wrong with you people? I like it hard!
New Fireflight... I hope they're going harder. And better.
Oh...new Emery. "Party Song" sounds good. At least they're still screaming. Unlike some people. *cough*Kidsintheway*cough* Yes, I'm still mad about that.

I fully intend to get a lip ring when I turn 18.

I'm serious. I'm pretty much loving lip rings. And I've heard it doesn't hurt as much as other piercings. Some people said it didn't hurt at all. I guess it just depends on the person and their pain tolerance.
But my parents don't like them. My mom said she doesn't like the way it looks. Well, that's your opinion, and it's my face.
I can't do it until I'm done with braces anyway.
Yeah. Finally getting braces. Within this month. I think. They have a mold of my teeth, but I need eight teeth taken out. So it'll probably be longer. Stupid crooked teeth.
The worst part of school so far is not knowing anyone and getting up early. Of course I haven't even started yet.

Our Faces Fall Apart, and My Heartstrings Come Undone

Wow. Summer of Darkness is an amazing album. I can't believe I haven't listened to it before.
At the football game last night there were a few drunks sitting behind me screaming profanities. Along with telling the defense to "kill him!!!"

I don't belong here.
I never saw this on the path I walk,
The blood stained walls, the lines of chalk on the floor.
It's getting so hard.
I never saw the backlash when the tide began to rise.
I can't remember
The way it was when everything felt right.
My mouth held shut and eyes sealed tight with control.
So I remember on the inside...
I found a dark, infernal place I don't want to face anymore.
Somehow I won't stop feeding the pain, my heart's just the same as before.

If this is all the love my spirit can give,
(just take it back tonight)
There is not a reason more to live.

I love that song.

HSM 2, skipping singer boys, and emo angry songs.

The party was amazing. If you weren't invited, you should be jealous. I'm kidding.....the only reason one wouldn't be invited is if you were a guy....like my grandpa, who really wanted to come.
Lauren and I stayed up all night. Eating cheetos and watching Potter Puppet Pals. And making up our own dialog. Troy and Chad forever!
I'm getting excited about school. There's this amazing class I'm taking called Recording Arts. But apparently I don't get a locker. :(
I finally got the HSM 2 soundtrack! And incense. Now my room smells like India.

Ketchup splattered on the floor is VERY funny.

I swear it is. I almost collapsed laughing at it. Well, I actually did. No almost. But The Almost is a pretty good band. You should check them out. Along with Haste the Day. They are like the most amazing band ever. I love their lyrics. And you should check out Project 86's Rival Factions album. "Pull Me Closer, Violent Dancer" = most amazing song ever. It's about moshing.
The video shoot on Monday was fun, but we didn't get everything done, because of circumstances beyond our control. Lol, Sarah and Matt make a beautiful couple. A ghostly, baby-powdered twelve year old and a dark ballerina.
"You hate babies? I hate babies! Let's not get married and never have kids." Alexa is hilarious.
I was being a diva and stormed off of the set. Then I stormed right back on. Hey, I'm not a troublemaker. Even if I do occasionally dye my hair purple. And punch flour bags until they explode.
I need to wash my glove. It has lipstick on it. I had to put my hand over Rachel's mouth while she screamed. Locke doesn't have to wear lipstick. I'm glad. But apparently she wears perfume? Alexa ran up and sprayed some on me. It was gross. I couldn't get it off.
When we were done with the shoot Matt called his mom and was saying that he was all alone at the church and that she was late. I was like "What? You liar!" So he gave me the phone and I talked to her.

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Summer depresses me.
There's nothing to do but sit around and watch tv, and tell myself that I'll get around to doing whatever it is I need to do later. Which I never end up doing. So I spend two hours on the computer, and wonder why my life is so boring.
There are things I should be doing. Like practicing guitar. Or cleaning my room (believe me, it needs it). I could even work on Hebrew. But I got stuck, so I don't see that progressing in the near future.
An even better use of my time would be to catch up on reading the Bible. Which I seem to have forgotten about...
So now I bid the internet farewell and get on with my day.

Liberty Spikes!

Creation fest was amazing. As in amazingly hot. But it was still really fun. I met Thousand Foot Krutch. And gave them keychains. The keychains were orange, so I said they were "The Flame In All Of Us." They thought it was funny.
Emily and I were having a conversation in the camper (at the reunion). I was saying something like, "if I were older and he wasn't married..." It was funny. Jason heard that part. Then we went outside to go somewhere on our bikes and I said "the rest of them aren't bad-looking either." Emily agreed, and Jason said something about the boy scouts. It's so fun to talk about things in front of Jason. Emily got a text and I asked her how Kevin was. But we aren't really very good liars. Which I guess is a good thing.
I might as well announce it here...I will be attending Kingston High School for my tenth-grade year. It was only after a lot of thought and introspection that I have made this decision.
I am going to try to give myself a mohawk. Liberty spike style. Lots of hairspray.
I am such a girl. Which isn't necessarily a bad thing, since I am. I just say that when I'm mad at myself because I keep spacing and smiling.
Emily and I had a water and soap fight yesterday. "How do you turn soap into gold?" "Add twenty-four carrots!" And no, that's not supposed to make sense.
I haven't finished the story about Bob because I was on a roll and I'm not sure that I could do it again. I will try though. I've got pretty much nothing going on this week, so I'll have time.
And now I must make myself a latte.