6/18/2007

They don't understand. No one understands. It's all very.....emo.

That's only kind of true. I'm not depressed about it. Just ranting.
It sucks being a girl sometimes. Jason was wearing all black one day and no comment. The next day I wear all black and my parents think I'm going goth. I actually just like wearing black.
I act so stupid at times. Actually that's debatable. Some people would say all the time.
I think I sent someone the wrong signals. I only see him like once every four months, and I act like he's not there because I don't talk to him because I'm so stupid and SHY.
Man, everyone thinks I want to be a "rockstar." That's not what it's about (yes, I have a shirt that says rockstar on it, but I'm just trying to be optimistic). And I'm not good at telling people that because I have trouble talking about "deep" things that involve me. And I'm not really that talented, so they're like, how is this going to work again?
My dad keeps bringing architecture. "I stink at drawing." "You could get better if you practice." "I don't like architecture, I like music." "You think people can't change? Besides, you could design music halls."
I don't WANT to change. I don't think people understand WHY I like music. It just, I don't know, it means a lot more to me than "Hey, this should be fun."
I think I am verging on mentally disturbed and slightly schizophrenic at times. Either that or this is just something that happens when you're a fifteen year old girl.

13 comments:

Lauren said...

hm, goth isn't really the "thing" anymore. If you were to ever go goth, you'd probably be ridiculed.
How comforting...
I WILL TRADE FATHERS WITH YOU! Mine is convinced that because Nathan is going into engineering that i do also. AND HE'S A MUSIC MAJOR!

RRock_With_It said...

Lol goth is dead. But i think that was the whole point of it anyway....
I would hate engineering. My dad's an engineer. I've been to his office. And even talked on the secret phone. It looks pretty boring.
9 to 5 office job? *looks up* take me now.

Lauren said...

mcdonalds is looking more and more promising...

RRock_With_It said...

you can't have weird colored hair there, though.

Lauren said...

gee, thanks.

RRock_With_It said...

No, I mean I want weird colored hair.

Lauren said...

aaaah...
since when does mcdonalds care about quality and stuff like that?

Lauren said...
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RRock_With_It said...

It's probably because some customers would be like "Aah! Blue hair! you're going to steal my lunch money!"

Lauren said...

just kick them and say, "have a nice day!"

RRock_With_It said...

You can't really kick them from behind the counter. I wonder if they did that on purpose.

Lauren said...

sure you can. some of us have more than 2 legs.

RRock_With_It said...

A cow?